But grateful take the good I find, The best of now and here.”
~ John Greenleaf Whittier
I had a morning to myself today, and looked forward to it. No plans except, perhaps, to get to the writing I had been procrastinating about for so long. At the breakfast table we all sung "Happy Birthday" into the phone to my mom in New York and wished her a wonderful day. As I dropped my kids at school this morning, my son waved to me from the open window of their classroom, dragging out his goodbye: "I love you so much, mama Gina....Bye....See you later....I love you." The weather was beautiful, warm and sunny, almost like a Summer morning. I headed home to begin my day.
As the arrow changed to green I rounded a corner, a corner I've turned hundreds of times, on to a busy 6-lane street. A dark blue car was suddenly speeding towards me. Speeding towards me on the wrong side of the road heading straight for me. My shoulders hunched, I had nowhere to go, I felt my face grimace as I knew the car was going to hit me.
Then it happened. Somehow it didn't hit me head on, instead it clipped the corner of my car and spun out behind me, screeching and then smashing loudly into a chain link fence and continuing over piles of plastic piping into a construction site. It came to a stop only when it smashed into a huge trailer used to haul semi trucks, a metal rod sticking out through the car's windshield.
How quickly a day can change. How quickly a life can change. Over and over today I saw that car coming at me and thought about how differently tonight would be had it hit me just a few feet to the right. And in thinking about how much I could have lost, I remember how much I have.
Tonight, as I put our children to sleep, I lingered just a little longer and kissed them a few more times. I hugged my husband tighter and took a moment to consider my life. It is so easy to get caught up in the frustration, exhaustion and anxiety that come along with life as it gets more complex. It is so easy to pass your days worrying about what is yet to come or regretting what has been. Tonight I want to just be grateful for what I have. Here and now.
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